"The Worryfreak"

Yes. I am the worryfreak. Never it is bad to think of the future. The positive as well as negative things that may come your way. Of course it is not also bad to prepare for those. Yet as they say, extremes are'nt always good and thinking TOO MUCH of the future is one very good example. When i asked myself if i am truly happy right now with who i am, where i am, i saw how incapable of me to be truly happy. I have had wonderful memories.. happy memories... yet i always put them aside, because somehow thinking about it seemed irresponsible. Its like im not preparing myself of the bad things that may come.. that i may have enjoy life too much. It was my way of protecting myself and making myself ready for anything that may hurt me. I regret the times when i came too prepared of all the negative things. More, i regret the times when i forced myself to be strong. I regret not to be able to enjoy many things in my life, that i didn't cry as if there is no tomorrow. I was always thinking of the future. Afraid of what future might bring, tried to be strong of anything that may come my way that i forgot the present. Come to think of it, why was i worrying too much of the future?

Enjoying life isn't being irresponsible and being easy go lucky. It is simply knowing that there are certain moments in life that could never come back again