"The Worryfreak"
Yes. I am the worryfreak. Never it is bad to think of the future. The positive as well as negative things that may come your way. Of course it is not also bad to prepare for those. Yet as they say, extremes are'nt always good and thinking TOO MUCH of the future is one very good example. When i asked myself if i am truly happy right now with who i am, where i am, i saw how incapable of me to be truly happy. I have had wonderful memories.. happy memories... yet i always put them aside, because somehow thinking about it seemed irresponsible. Its like im not preparing myself of the bad things that may come.. that i may have enjoy life too much. It was my way of protecting myself and making myself ready for anything that may hurt me. I regret the times when i came too prepared of all the negative things. More, i regret the times when i forced myself to be strong. I regret not to be able to enjoy many things in my life, that i didn't cry as if there is no tomorrow. I was always thinking of the future. Afraid of what future might bring, tried to be strong of anything that may come my way that i forgot the present. Come to think of it, why was i worrying too much of the future?
Enjoying life isn't being irresponsible and being easy go lucky. It is simply knowing that there are certain moments in life that could never come back again
posted by Jo @ 11:05:00 PM
1 Comments:
Hey Jo! pa-comment lang po haha. Hmm, your personality kinda makes sense na dahil dito sa revelation mo (lagi ka kasing parang nasa outer space eh haha). But always remember - what use is it to prepare for the future if you are never there in the present? gets ba? haha medyo magulo, pero what I'm trying to say is that if you keep looking to the future, when the future becomes present, where will you be looking to and what use will it all be if you can't enjoy the future-turned-present? Sometimes it's better to enjoy the times with friends or family, to enjoy the times when you actually HAVE FUN and not drift off to what tomorrow might bring (I only do that when I'm bored with the present company - although with you guys that almost never happens hehehe). Also, it's the memories that you "put aside" that will actually help you get through some of the emotionally trying times in your life (rest assured my memories of you guys have gotten me through a lot of depressing moments - and it should be the same for you). Also, it's nice to be prepared but not to be paranoid (nagsalita ang hindi paranoid ;) ), dapat nasa lugar ang worries diba? I guess you've realized all these things already based on what you've written. La lang, just wanted to say my piece para sayo... Have fun in China!!
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